I am waaaaaaay to angry of a person. I seriously think I have a problem. I get so unbelievably angry at people for no real reason, or for supppeer tiny reasons and I will blow them way out of proportion and just completely shut down. I wont talk to anyone, Ill give one worded anwsers or just sounds, Ill hold a grudge for a unnecessary amount of time and I will stay angry for a long amount of time as well. And the crazy thing is, I WANT to be angry .. like they will apologize, or try to talk to me or say really sweet things to me and be super sweet and caring and I wont care .. I will just ignore it and stay angry. Does that not sound like someone who needs serious help? Does it not sounds like I have a problem? I mean this isnt normal .. people arnt like this. Lucky me? And the horrible thing is i feel soooooo horrible for doing this to the people I love, but I have no idea how to fix it or what to do.
But I love my amazing family (mom, sister, dad and step mom), friends and my amazing boyfriend who puts up with this and can calm me down and make me feel like Im not crazy and can still love me :3 <3
Thursday, 29 March 2012
Monday, 26 March 2012
wedding blues
I am soooo excited for school to staaaarrrrrrrrtttt :) only .. 14 more days!! :D :D
So the other day I went to my god fathers wedding in Whistler, and it was soo nice! A very sweeet ceremony and such good food!! Like one of the best chicken meals I've ever had! And the dessert was very good too! And ofcorse it was all made gluten free for me :) We had to wake up so early in the morning to drive up to Whistler because we werent spending the night. And the boyfriend didnt come to the wedding with me so I missed him alllll daaaaay :P :$ and he says he missed me tooo :P But the wedding was really good and I got a couple of good pictures of the happy couple :) Congrats Uncle Matt and Graig :)!! <3
Last night we went to the pub with a bunch of friends, and it was a good time until i started feeling sick :( and I had to stay at the pub until the end of the night :( but it was all worth it to have boyfriend spend the night and then wake up with him this morning on a suuupppper sunny day :)!! The weathers been soooooooo nice!! :D It makes me realllyyy want summer! I cant wait to go to the beach and camping trips and pools :D soooo excited! But I dont like the heat .. so I dont know how thats gonna pan out :P
Anywaaaayyysss .. I havnt really slept very well in like 48 hours .. so Im gonna goto bed. Goodnight! :)
OH and if brandon's reading this I changed the name for you ;) :P
So the other day I went to my god fathers wedding in Whistler, and it was soo nice! A very sweeet ceremony and such good food!! Like one of the best chicken meals I've ever had! And the dessert was very good too! And ofcorse it was all made gluten free for me :) We had to wake up so early in the morning to drive up to Whistler because we werent spending the night. And the boyfriend didnt come to the wedding with me so I missed him alllll daaaaay :P :$ and he says he missed me tooo :P But the wedding was really good and I got a couple of good pictures of the happy couple :) Congrats Uncle Matt and Graig :)!! <3
Last night we went to the pub with a bunch of friends, and it was a good time until i started feeling sick :( and I had to stay at the pub until the end of the night :( but it was all worth it to have boyfriend spend the night and then wake up with him this morning on a suuupppper sunny day :)!! The weathers been soooooooo nice!! :D It makes me realllyyy want summer! I cant wait to go to the beach and camping trips and pools :D soooo excited! But I dont like the heat .. so I dont know how thats gonna pan out :P
Anywaaaayyysss .. I havnt really slept very well in like 48 hours .. so Im gonna goto bed. Goodnight! :)
OH and if brandon's reading this I changed the name for you ;) :P
Monday, 19 March 2012
Do you think people will know if were being sarcastic or not?
Thigh or for arm?
I am reeeeaaaaalllllllllllyyy wanting to get a pin up girl tattoo! And I can not wait to get it done! I just have to wait for some money to pop up magically in my bank account ;P Thankfully I got some money from a family member and I am planning on saving it for this very tattoo :)
Now I am wondering if I should get it on my for arm or on my thigh? .. hmm? My mom and boyfriend both think the thigh is the ideal area .. but my friend thinks that I should keep it on my for arm. And I really dont know which one to go with .. I like both places and I have reasons why I would want them and not want them in both places and I dont know which one to go with! Not that Im getting this tattoo anytime soon because like I said I dont have the money quite yet unfrotunatly. But when I do get it, I wanna know where I should get it! So opinions would be helpful please! :)
This weekend my mom, my sister and I are going to my god fathers wedding :) He is marrying his boyfriend this weekend in Whistler! I am very excited for them and I cant wait to go see them get married :)!! We are driving up early in the morning for noon martini's and then having a nice lunch/dinner and then driving home. So maybe I can get home in enough time to go to the bar and meet up with the boyfriend and some friends! :)
Also recently I have bought some art supplies which I am really excited about! I started using the charcoal I bought in the new sketchpad I bought :) I also got some new paints and spray for my charcoal drawings to set them.
I START SCHOOL IN 28 DAYS!!!!! :D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D Im soo excited to start!!
I am reeeeaaaaalllllllllllyyy wanting to get a pin up girl tattoo! And I can not wait to get it done! I just have to wait for some money to pop up magically in my bank account ;P Thankfully I got some money from a family member and I am planning on saving it for this very tattoo :)
Now I am wondering if I should get it on my for arm or on my thigh? .. hmm? My mom and boyfriend both think the thigh is the ideal area .. but my friend thinks that I should keep it on my for arm. And I really dont know which one to go with .. I like both places and I have reasons why I would want them and not want them in both places and I dont know which one to go with! Not that Im getting this tattoo anytime soon because like I said I dont have the money quite yet unfrotunatly. But when I do get it, I wanna know where I should get it! So opinions would be helpful please! :)
This weekend my mom, my sister and I are going to my god fathers wedding :) He is marrying his boyfriend this weekend in Whistler! I am very excited for them and I cant wait to go see them get married :)!! We are driving up early in the morning for noon martini's and then having a nice lunch/dinner and then driving home. So maybe I can get home in enough time to go to the bar and meet up with the boyfriend and some friends! :)
Also recently I have bought some art supplies which I am really excited about! I started using the charcoal I bought in the new sketchpad I bought :) I also got some new paints and spray for my charcoal drawings to set them.
I START SCHOOL IN 28 DAYS!!!!! :D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D Im soo excited to start!!
Wednesday, 14 March 2012
life updated.
Being sick sucks :( I've been pretty sick for the last couple of days :(
Last week my boyfriend slept over and we played shots snakes and ladders :) it was alot of fun!! Its a pretty cool game lol. And then one of my best friends turned the big 1 9! And we went to the Foggy Dew, which was pretty fun :)
I start school in 1 month and 2 days!! :) I am sooooooo excited and I can not wait to start!!! So any friends out there who might wanna volunteer to be my models let me know! ;) lol.
Boyfriend, his brother, myself and one of our friends so far are going to the Tenacious D concert in May :) Now I usually dont listen to theyre music, boyfriend showed it to me durring the summer when we went camping together with some friends. And I actually really liked it and Im very excited for the concert :)! The only sucky thing is that the concert is on a sunday and I will be in school durring this so I will still have to get up at 5 in the morning to go to school :( but oh well .. its the price you pay right? But a good thing about the concert is theres no seating so you can buy tickets any time and still have all your friends be together :)
My one year anniversary is coming up next month as well! And I am suuuuuper excited! :) I dont have anything planned for ti really, he does though! :) I kinda feel bad that I dont have anything for him :( Maybe Ill go out and get him a little something and possibly write him a little something .. but I cant say much because I know he will be reading this :P
what else is going on ... hmmm ... apparently nothing? lol but if something comes up I will post again! goodnight all
Last week my boyfriend slept over and we played shots snakes and ladders :) it was alot of fun!! Its a pretty cool game lol. And then one of my best friends turned the big 1 9! And we went to the Foggy Dew, which was pretty fun :)
I start school in 1 month and 2 days!! :) I am sooooooo excited and I can not wait to start!!! So any friends out there who might wanna volunteer to be my models let me know! ;) lol.
Boyfriend, his brother, myself and one of our friends so far are going to the Tenacious D concert in May :) Now I usually dont listen to theyre music, boyfriend showed it to me durring the summer when we went camping together with some friends. And I actually really liked it and Im very excited for the concert :)! The only sucky thing is that the concert is on a sunday and I will be in school durring this so I will still have to get up at 5 in the morning to go to school :( but oh well .. its the price you pay right? But a good thing about the concert is theres no seating so you can buy tickets any time and still have all your friends be together :)
My one year anniversary is coming up next month as well! And I am suuuuuper excited! :) I dont have anything planned for ti really, he does though! :) I kinda feel bad that I dont have anything for him :( Maybe Ill go out and get him a little something and possibly write him a little something .. but I cant say much because I know he will be reading this :P
what else is going on ... hmmm ... apparently nothing? lol but if something comes up I will post again! goodnight all
Saturday, 3 March 2012
mr brightside
Oh riggghhht I have one of these :P I got my tax returns a few days ago, and I bought a laptop!! :) I've never had one before and I am super excited about having one and being able to do whatever I want on it and have it locked ;) lol. And with the rest of my money Im hopfully gonna go shopping in the states to my favorite store Torrid!! Which I never get to go to because I live in a different country lol.
And I start school sooooon! I am sooooo excited!!! I cant wait to start school and a new job in the feild I like!
So my boyfriend made me watch V for Vendetta tonight and it was a very weird movie. I cant decide if I liked it or not? I thought some parts were realllyyy creepy! And some parts were really good and interesting!
And then boyfriend left .. and I cried .. again .. Lately it seem's almost every time he leaves I cry! I miss him sooo much and I wish he didnt have to leave and he could just stay here with me and fall asleep. I wish he was allowed to stay with me so I wouldnt have to cry or miss him .. it would be amazing.
anyways ... i love my laptop :) <3
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