long time coming!

WOW. Its been a loooooooonnnnnggggggg time!!!

I've been very very very busy! I work all the time, Im at school every single day, and i have to keep up with poeple.  As much as I can.

Im really sorry if I havnt been keeping up with all of you as I should be, or as much as I should be.  I do feel bad about it.  I miss all my friends that I dont talk to much anymore and my family who I dont see very often anymore either. And Im sorry about that.

I have some exciting news though, Im now engaged!! :) <3 No longer am I a girlfriend, Im a fince! ( I have no clue how to make the proper e) lol.  I am very excited about it!! I love him so much, I miss him all the time when were not together and i can see my self having a wonderful life with him forever. <3 Hes my everything.

Things in life are suupeer stressful! Work, school just living in general.  I am trying to figure out what, yet another health problem is with my body.  I am getting stomach pains again when I eat things sometimes and one night it was sooo bad I had to go to the hospital and i got sent home with nothing but a big bruse from an IV.  Now I am waiting for ultra sound results from my doctor that I got last week.

School is good but also very stressful.  I have to find a place to do my work experience very soon and I have tried applying at a few places and no where has gotten back to me so im starting to get really worried that i wont find somewhere to do it at. :(

And sometimes i dont feel pretty but my now fiance ;) keeps telling me im crazy and that im beautiful but i dont believe him the majority of the time.  I think theres plently of other much skinner and prettier girls he could be with out there that might satisfy him more.  But he insists that im just dumb and imm a hotty lol.  I guess thats one of the reasons why i love him so.